Thursday, March 5, 2015

I Chose Me.


This blog post has been a long time coming.

I wasn't sure how much or how little I wanted to share about the last few weeks of my life. Usually this blog is a tell-all for most things "Jess" but a friend reminded me that it's okay to keep some things private and I have to say, I agree in this instance.

For all involved, it's been a very tumultuous few weeks. Particularly for me. I've been through more emotional and mental strain in Feb of 2015 than ever in my life and I hit the lowest, darkest place I've ever been.

What's important now, is that of all the choices I could have made, the choice I did make was for me. I chose me. 

Starting today, I am a full time mom. That's all. I'm finally just a mom.

That's not to say that I don't plan to pursue other endeavors, because I do and it is important to me that I contribute to my family. However, for the first time in a long time I feel like myself again. I feel like Jess. Happy, satisfied, excitable, positively bubbly, overwhelmingly friendly....Jess. I'm not faking it anymore. I'm not pretending and putting on my happy face to make the outside world think all is well. I'm really feeling like myself again.

I finally feel like making mini-muffins for the neighbors and dropping them off, just because.

I finally feel like going for a walk and exercising my body and mind again.

I finally feel like doing all I can to stretch a dollar or a meal again (which, naturally with a change of income will come a change of lifestyle so that urge is coming at the right time!)

So, thank you for bearing with me the last few weeks and sticking around even though all you've had to read most of the time were my bitty little pregnancy updates.

Thank you for being loyal and kind and caring even though so many of you I have never met.

And thank you for continuing to read. Because coming up I aim to have a plethora of new crafts for moms and for toddlers, design for adult spaces and children's spaces and recipes of course that the whole family will appreciate and enjoy; even some that you can create together!

1 comment:

  1. This makes my heart happy to hear! I'm so glad to know that you feel like yourself again. You're a great mommy and deserve to be happy in every aspect in life. :)